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| You know i just realized that the end of march is creeping up! and in a blink of on eye, april wil be over and all u kiddies will be done ure 3rd year!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i know! its crazy, it honestly felt like yesterdayi graduated from blanche... and that was last june, and june is coming up again..holy shit! and what have i done all year... work..pay bills,seemy buddies in t.o...but honestly seems like i coulda done so much more.... i think this summer i am going to try to DO something, GO somewhere.. make some good memories... as i was telling lai a few months back.... we are too young... too young to work all day, study all night... now a days, honestly, we are lucky to be able to gather everyone in the same room and relax a lil.... so depressing... we dont see anyone.. do anything... PPL WE GOTTA start living!!!!!!!!!!!! be irresponsible once in a while! someone come and dick off wit me! haha | | |
| so i just got back from the madness city of t.o... and i am extremely torn... i dont know whether to move back or not.. so mnay things, and soo many PEOPLE , especially, there are swirling inside my head, tempting, begging me, demanding me to go back... yet in the past 6 years, i have call vancouver my home.. i have built somewhat of a live here, i have sacraficed a lot, and left a lot of me behind... top make my life here work... and now htat my parents deicded to move back to t.o... and split my life in half... i am so lost... before there was no point to move back ther, because my family was here... but this time i went back... having a home, a car, family and afriends there again..feels..different... it almost feels like i never left...
and as i got on the plane on tuesday.. i was left thinking....where is it that i truely want to be... even thou i have made many friends here and deveolped a certain attachment to many things and places here... sometimes... most times.. it still doesnt feel rite...
but will up rooting my entire life once again and moving back across the country fix all this confuion... perhaps...perhaps not... i wonder.... i cant deiced....help meee! | | |
| the life i live and the life which was born into is nothing alike..in fact they are polar opposites... i long to live like i use to... but in order to do so.. i have to change so much... sacrafic so much... why cant the two worlds come together? i belong to both... i have a lil of both... yet at the same time nothin at all...... toronto.... should i go back? | | |
| why are girl sooo fucked up. why do we have hormones?!?!?!? why?!?1 it only fucks wit our brains every month and leaves screamin in pain from stomach cramps on the floor, in some cases our beds and not to mention the nastiness that comes with the package haha sorry boys, TMI but anyways,i hate it, i would be perfectly happy one second.. and then completely want to kill myself and any one else that annoys me along the way, GRrrR I actually shouldnt be complaining considering how sick i was just a little over a year and a half ago. I guess i should be happy that my body is functioning like any normal person ... but still COME ON! Its not ok when all this happens, my entire life shuts down... i cant sleep, cant eat, cant play, cant talk.. i cant even fuckin work! AHHH | | |
| why am i such a lil weakling. i get sick so easily! its annoying..outta no where i get hit by a gianormous flu... like wtf i was fine one day.. and practically dead the next.. this sucks | | |
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